I hold my emotions back and try to

I hold my emotions back and try to be still. Putting my best efforts, trying to understand everything and trying my best to slip everything away with not a word to say. Because the moment I begin to tell you one thing, I’ll be telling you everything then I’ll get mad or you’ll do, I knew. We’ll then lose each other and cut this. I don’t want to lose you and I don’t want to end this so I hold my emotions back and try to be still.

I don’t know what else to believe. I need to think things over. It could be I am too naïve or maybe a lot gullible. I knew I was being lied to but I still would not want anything to get in the way of my happiness. That slipped out wrong — I should not let anything get in the way of my happiness, not even my selfish desires, that is. Psh. I don’t know who’s fooling who. I can never be with anyone who says one thing and does another. Everything is simply a blueprint of what will happen next, one wrong move and all will be ruined. I was told I am loved – I didn’t  believe this is a true story though. I’ll end up discovering those that were kept hidden and I’ll end up cutting someone off, as time would prove.